I'm Disabled And You're Jealous?

Our economy is SO bad....    (how bad is it?)

It's SO bad that people are jealous of me for becoming disabled.  They say I'm lucky.  Because now I don't have to work.  I get to stay home.

Lucky for you, I'm too disabled to kick your ass.

Lucky for me, I can show you how stupid you are with words.

It occurs to me that the average person works 2 or 3 jobs and still struggles to make ends meet.  I get that, I understand why you think I have it made.  I also understand that you don't eat well, don't sleep enough and therefore you can't think straight.

Wanna be disabled?  Let me explain how awesome it really is.

First, PAIN.  DOCTORS.  PAIN.  SURGERY.  MORE PAIN.  MORE DOCTORS.  MESSY HOUSE.  SCARED CHILDREN.  NO MONEY.  NO FREEDOM.  NO ENERGY.  NO HOPE.  AND NOBODY BELIEVES YOU.

Next, PAIN, COUNSELORS, PAIN, SOCIAL WORKERS, LAWYERS, JUDGES WHO DON'T THINK YOUR DOCTORS ARE GOOD ENOUGH, SENDS YOU TO ONE OF THEIR CHOOSING, SO MORE DOCTORS, MORE PAIN, MORE PROOF, AND STILL NOBODY BELIEVES YOU.

Then, ANOTHER SURGERY, MORE PAIN, SCARED CHILDREN, MESSY HOUSE, MORE SERVICES REQUIRING MORE PROOF AND MORE DIFFERENT DOCTORS, LAWYERS, COURT, JUDGES WHO DON'T BELIEVE YOU

When I finally proved that I'm really, truly, honest to god disabled by 5 different doctors,

Then, THE JUDGE SEEKS VOCATIONAL REHABILITATION SPECIALIST CONSULT,  JUST TO MAKE EXTRA GODDAMNED SURE THERE ISN'T A JOB, SOMEWHERE, THAT I COULD DO, SOMEHOW, DAMMIT THERE MUST BE SOMETHING SHE CAN DO REGARDLESS OF HER CONSTANT PAIN AND TERMINALLY BROKEN BODY....

But of course, the voc rehab guy was like "nope, she is really too disabled to employ and we could not expect any employer to accommodate a disability such as hers"

NO SHIT!  THAT'S WHY I'M HERE.

Next, THE JUDGE GETS TO NEGOTIATE MY DATE OF INJURY IN ORDER TO SHORTEN THE LENGTH OF MY DISABILITY AND GIVE ME LESS MONEY.  Because that's the American way.

But in the end, I jumped through all the hoops and was awarded with SSDI.  I was reviewed the following year, and will be reviewed every 12-18 months.  So I will be jumping through hoops for the rest of my life, until I get rich and famous, or until we lose the program altogether.

The amount I get was determined by my work history.  So if you worked hard your whole life and become disabled, your ssdi payment will be the average of what you earned in your lifetime.  So, I'm lucky that I became disabled after working my ass off for 20 years at good jobs that paid well.

And everyone is jealous, because they get to go out into the world, choose what jobs to take or not to take, negotiate salaries, ask for raises, decide which co-workers to date or not date,  set up a 401K and bring it with you to your next job, or maybe quit your job and go back to school or move to another state or another country.

My only hope is to try to build some sort of career for myself online, because I refuse to accept the notion of NOT being rich and famous someday!  I can still write, dammit!
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