Wednesday, July 8, 2026

Heartbroken Because Of My Stupid Friend

 July 8, 2026: A friendship or social connection may touch a vulnerable spot. The Moon enters Taurus in your 11th House of Community and meets Chiron there, stirring questions around belonging, group plans, online attention, or whether someone is really in your corner. You may feel tempted to overgive to stay included. Do not buy your way into closeness with emotional labor. Share one honest wish with someone trustworthy. The right people will make room for your needs without making you campaign for basic care.


Today's horoscope made me cry. Damn these are so dead on sometimes.

I'm sitting here crying because of what happened. My best friend's daughter stole from me, and the way she's handling it makes me realize maybe she isnt such a great friend. 

And I am racking my brain trying to find a way to fix it but I cant- if anything, she has to be the one to fix it. 

I suggested we go to a family counselor to try to repair the trust and find a way to move forward as a family, but she said no and went to the shelter! So they're moving out, running away, instead of facing it and trying to fix it. 

I tried to explain the situation, as I see it, and how betrayed I feel, in a way that would make sense, for example

if my kid stole from you, first of all I would pay you back right away 

(she didnt offer to pay me back)

I would punish my kid, I would take their phone, I would make them get a job, I would make them apologize and I would tell their therapists and ask for help dealing with my delinquent child! 

(she is not punishing her child or using this as a learning opportunity or to teach a lesson, no. She is coddling and spoiling her as if she didnt just commit a crime.)

I would make you feel like I was concerned for your feelings of security, by taking care of the situation and trying to make it right and giving you your money back.

 And she isnt doing that for me. She just told me to lock up my car and my purse so she cant steal them again. And that doesnt make me feel like she's handling the situation, its like shes putting her head in the sand.

And when people show you who they are, believe them.

This person does not have my back. This person is content to just take advantage of me and let her kid steal from me without consequence. 

Well, the consequence is that they either take accountability and heal the relationship or they move out. And she has chosen to go stay at the homeless shelter rather than deal with this. Rather than offering to pay me back, she said go ahead and file the police report.

If the tables were turned there would be no need to involve the police because I would do the right thing. I keep going around in circles trying to figure out another way past this (like just sucking it up and pretending like it didnt happen...) but obviously my big feelings wont go away until they are dealt with. The only way out is through, not around. But if they dont want to repair the trust then, I've done all I can do, right? 

When people show you who they are, even after 18 years of being besties, you have to believe them. I am heartbroken. And in shock.

Saturday, July 4, 2026

Cinderella Has Had Enough

 July 4, 2026: A private feeling could break through before you are ready to explain it. Mars and Uranus meet in your 12th House of the Unconscious, stirring hidden desire, old memories, secret irritation, or the need to end a pattern that has been draining you quietly. You may want to disappear, confess everything, or cut the cord dramatically. Breathe first. Write the truth before speaking it. Choose the reveal or boundary that protects your peace without turning mystery into emotional chaos.

Today's horoscope made me cry because it's true.

I am full of rage because... Well,

my roommate's 15 year old daughter stole my car and my credit and debit card, charged almost $600 to the cards and used up a quarter tank of gas, broke the electrical panel on the passenger side, and got the inside of the car all dirty. She didnt even try to hide the evidence.

Of course the car evidence I saw right away. I knew as soon as I saw where it was parked that someone else had driven it. When I got in, the seat was all the way back, the radio was turned all the way down, my visor was up, the panel was broken and dangling, the outer panel was popped out over the tire, and I was down from a half tank to a quarter tank.

Then I drove to Walgreens to get medicine because I'm sick, and my credit card didnt work. Impossible! 

I went home and called the bank. I spent the next 3 hours on the phone with the bank, disputing all the charges that weren't mine. So of course I had to cancel both my credit and debit cards and order new ones. And the bank lady suggested that I file a police report, so they could reverse the fraudulent charges. And I did.

When I told my roommate, she apologized to me. But she did not take her child's phone away or punish her in any way. What? I mean the whole reason you give your kid a phone is so you have something to take away when they mess up. So I have to get the police involved because she's too scared of making her tyrant daughter mad at her by holding her accountable? 

This is not an isolated incident. Her daughter has been refusing to go to school, refusing to come home before curfew, lying and sneaking out, stealing weed-

so this whole time I've been telling my roommate "you need to set boundaries with her! Take her phone away until she goes back to school, dont let her go out with friends, stop buying her things, stop paying for her phone, she needs to face consequences or she will just get worse"

Long story short, it got worse.

Her daughter used her phone to steal from me and she STILL won't take it away.

So now I live with 2 people that I can't trust. Their family drama is one thing- they are currently in the middle of a custody battle because her daughter's dad is trying to prove that my roommate is a bad mom, which she is, but he is even worse, so...

Not to mention the fact that I am their maid. They make my life harder than it needs to be and all I get is $1000 a month for rent. I'm not sure this is worth it.

But it isnt that simple. We are family. Our kids are best friends and have grown up together. 

But her daughter used her phone to steal from me and she STILL wont take it away! I am furious! Selfishly furious but also I hate that she is being a terrible mother on my watch! And there's nothing I can do!

Except press charges, and evict them. I mean, I don't want to throw away a 20 year friendship but 

after all I have done for them- you have no idea- after all I have done for her, she is going to allow her daughter to steal from me and continue to walk all over her- 

but I will not allow her to walk all over me.

I have moon in Aries! I can't hold this in! I wake up every morning full of rage. I find myself thinking evil thoughts- and I will speak them and I will regret it.

I just don't know how a friendship can recover from all this anger and mistrust. And I have pretty much lost all respect for her. I kinda hate them both. I love them too. They are family, we have lived together for so long and have been through so much together. 

I'm afraid of her daughter's bad behavior rubbing off on my kid.

I'm afraid of being stolen from again. What if I forget to lock up my car and purse? Why should I have to feel afraid in my own home that I own? Living here is a privilege, not a right.

I feel betrayed by my best friend, whose daughter is a delinquent because she never faces any consequence for her actions. And this is spilling over into my life and making my life harder than it needs to be.

I'm angry and sad and I dont know what to do. I am afraid of what I might do out of anger as well. If anyone fucks with me or my money- youre dead, youre fucking dead. And I hate feeling this way about them. I hate wishing I could get rid of them and I hate that I want to hit them both. 

Somebody please fuck with me so I can kick your ass and get this rage out of my body? LOL

Friday, May 29, 2026

Men Who Sleep With Men But Aren't Gay Is The Latest Trend And I'm So Here For It

Shhh! I'm trying to make fetch happen!

Men. Hypersexual. Always horny. Lying to get sex. They will fuck someone they dont have feelings for, no problem, no remorse, no regret. They will fuck women they arent attracted to because they just need the sex that much...

so why exclude men? If you can separate "i'm just using you for sex I dont actually want you" with women, you can certainly do it with men too. You can fuck each other, and not be in love or even attracted to men at all, you can just use each other for sex. And that wouldnt make you gay. Ancient greeks and romans, just sayin...

Men really need to get over the whole "being called a fag" thing because who cares. Youre out there lying and tricking women, when you could just- oh snap is that why you like transgirls? ok ok but still, you dont need to stealth those desires, like, youre all out here performing for other men who are literally doing the same thing as you behind closed doors. You guys are holding each other to these hyper masculine standards that arent even real. And if men would just stop harassing other men then maybe you wouldnt be such miserable human beings. I mean you guys could really kill two birds with one stone here. It's like, your fears are running the show. It's as if peer pressure is the ultimate life or death of it all. LOL! Imagine being so fragile that you need to pretend to be something that none of you really are for each other in order to have friends. 

And you know what? Men are so influenced by other men that it wouldnt even take very long to change the overton window on this. It would only take one popular guy on tiktok to start the trend of "yeah I sleep with men but I'm not gay" and then suddenly you'll all have permission to do it too. Just sayin...

Wednesday, April 15, 2026

They Must've Been Forking Each Other Silly

 The ancient Greeks thought it was perfectly normal for men to fuck each other... actually "being a homosexual" wasn't a thing until Dandies and macaroni caps. 

So how did it become an abomination in the eyes of the Lord?! 

I mean IDK but I was just imagining that maybe the Roman army generals couldn't control their men because of all the rampant fucking and were like, "how are we gonna patrol this empire when all these men can't stop fucking each other for five minutes and focus?" And from there it made its way into the Bible. 

IDK would that even make a group of men more efficient? Or less?!

anyway maybe it wasn't about hate, maybe it was about productivity?

Sunday, January 11, 2026

I Was Wrong About AI (And I'll Never Use It Again)

I'm not using AI anymore, I'm not using ChatGPT anymore, and I urge you to do the same.

I didn't understand how much damage was being done by the data centers, I didn't realize that they were stealing freshwater and overloading the power grids, nor did I understand the evil that it would be used for, especially against women and children.
I am a tech positive person but this tech is hurting people and depleting our greatest natural resource. #nomoreAI #aiisbad

Friday, August 29, 2025

I Want To Be Known As A Producer So I Can Get Work As A Producer

If I were the type to make videos where I talk to the camera, I would be making one about the Dear Liza EP I'm working on, specifically the song Stoned. 

I'm not sure how I would film myself talking about this, because I would want it to be filmed like you were standing right next to me or looking over my shoulder while I show you on the computer what I'm thinking- for example, 

after the chorus, there's some dead space... I'm thinking that chorus line could be repeated to fill that gap.

And then at the end, the pauses in the last chorus? They should be sequential and on beat, to make one long chorus that you can groove along with instead of being broke up like they are. 

Also, this song is so cheeky, I think it needs sound effects. 

How many times does it mention a train? How about some train sounds off in the distance? 

Tidal wave? We should hear it! 

Stoned?! We need bong hits in the background! And a party, and coughing and laughter!

Also the high harmony is missing in the chorus, I would like to add it.

If you follow me on insta, you just heard this song because I just posted it, twice actually, so you might know exactly what I'm talking about, and you may even disagree because you love it the way it is so much haha just kidding theres no way- 

So this is me being a producer, and I should be making videos about this, because I want to be known as a producer. I should film myself producing so you all know about my skills and maybe want to hire me to record you, or to produce tracks you already have, like I'm doing with Dear Liza right now. I just cant figure out how to capture this on camera by myself holding the phone. I mean it doesn't even make sense to show myself on camera, maybe I could just show my screen and talk... I could be on screen if I had a camera man- oh maybe just a tripod. I should look into that because I really should be putting my face on camera so you can get to know me! 

Ok, go follow me on insta, lilmcgillmusic. I will follow you back.



Tuesday, July 29, 2025

The Sitcom That Is My Life

For years, I've been living in a sitcom. Two single mothers and their kids live together in the suburbs, with episodes of blended family friendly fun and shenanigans, and sometimes drunken adult shenanigans when the kids visit their dads. Good show. 

Then suddenly,

my ex husband tells me, oops he sold his house and doesn't have anything lined up, guess he'll have to move in with us while he looks for a new place... and the market is bad... so he's gonna take his time finding the right place... New show! 

We've officially gone from Valerie to The Hogan Family. Yeah I'm a little sad, but. These shows can't last forever.

I shouldn't complain. He's the bumbling sitcom Dad that fixes things around the house and makes omelettes at the crack of dawn. Always making jokes, always trying to help. Likes grocery shopping. Will watch soccer with my Mom. In many ways life will improve. My house will improve, at the very least.

Now the sitcom is sitcom-ing, and the shenanigans are shenanigan-ing even more as my kids are here full time and my ex husband is suddenly a roommate, with pets, that I have to consider, work around and compromise with. And introduce to all my friends. And wait for and clean up after and pay attention to... it's fine. What's one more person, a dog, and a cat and kids full time? 

Stay tuned for more blended family fun and adventure. I'll surely be venting about it!